As a younger man I wore the coat of the agnostic.
Having heard so many state that God was love but if you broke a certain
rule you would suffer for all eternity, that
the Devil battles with God and actually wins from time to time, never
made any sense to me. I had always believed that there was “something”,
some power or intelligence, but the idea of a punishing, score keeping,
testing God that could lose battles just did not pass muster. As life
progressed, the one thing I did right was keep an open mind,
continuing to seek and learn. I studied and investigated everything from
Catholicism to Islam, Dianetics to the Rosicrucian’s, learning much but
never convinced. Finally I found myself in a position where I had to face
the proposition of God not from some intellectual hilltop but from the
depths of depression and pain. Nothing sharpens the mind, cutting away
the superfluous like pain, for in the dark night of the soul esoteric
knowledge and philosophical debating points lose all significance. Lost
in pain and doubt I reached out and my plea was answered, lacking all
ambiguity and I was convinced.
Though we
are all connected in Spirit, each of us walks our own path, daily choosing pain or peace. Our path of
awakening following the decisions and choices we make, for
pain is the only instrument sharp enough to cut away the excess of self.
Today I know in my heart of hearts that God desires all His children to
be happy, joyous and free and that He will guide us through the process of
enlightenment, as long as we remain open minded and willing. Forgiveness in Spirit our birth right.
If you are struggling with the
concept of a punishing score keeping God, please borrow mine. When I
make a mistake, a daily occurrence, He directs me and shows me the
correct action to take if I but ask. The price: pray
regularly, meditate daily and treat all in the manner you wish to be treated
in. Please
no pushing; there is plenty of Him to go around.
© Vincent Lee Jones Living In Spirit
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The Secret, Wayne Dyer, Serenity,
Enlightenment, Zen, Emmet Fox, How To Be Happy, Golden Key, Four Agreements,
Chopra, Jesus, Einstein, AA, McRaven, Healing Path
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