Looking back at the younger me I was filled with self as only the young can be, I thought I had all the answers and was quick to offer them up, usually unasked. And I was clueless to down right dismissive on spiritual matters. I placed worldly possessions, accomplishments and titles on the pedestal of success, relying on them for personal significance, holding these things as important, paramount, chasing the fleeting chimera of perceived entitlement, believing spiritual living was archaic, pointless in these modern times. So the query is: Would we surrender the work done to Live on the Spiritual Basis, the visible and invisible scars so well earned, forgotten, to recapture youths glow and promise?
I can only answer for me, but no, I wouldn't. The price too high where spiritual pride, self-righteousness, wallowing in hedonism, especially at the expense of others are on the bill. So I guess I'm stuck with these knees, afternoon naps and the memory of a 28 inch waist. It’s not so bad though, although I may have to don reading glasses my vision has never been better, I see with the clarity that comes by trusting and relying upon infinite God, rather than my finite self. I have learned the hard lesson of refraining from answering unasked questions, having learned through bitter experience that as much as I may wish to help, that help is not welcomed if offered uninvited.
So when the day comes, hopefully sometime from now, when I somersault into eternity my life will be measured not by the love I received or even earned, but by the love and the blessings given anonymously without expectation, that will truly mark my life, not the things I owned or the accolades I garnered. I really do miss those knees and that waist though.
© Vincent Lee Jones Living In Spirit
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The Secret, Wayne Dyer, Recovery,
Addiction, Zen, Emmet Fox, Opioids, NA, Four Agreements, Chopra, Heroin,
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